Come back now

ev ery bo dy dies, that’s life, i do not want to die, to night, my mind is racin fast, to night, if i just end it all, they might, talk a bout the good i did, in this life, i just, don’t wanna be forgotten like all my friends, workin a 9-5, on a path to my deathbed, one day no one will know who i am,

i will have made no impact on this earth who am i, because i am slowly losing myself, and destroying everything around me, who will come to my funeral, who will talk about all the bad i did in my life will anyone mention the good, i am lost, at this thought, of no one ever remembering that i existed, i am at a crossroad, i don’t see a path with a good ending, i always end up hurting someone, and in turn, destroying my self, do you ever feel like a clouds over your head, i feel like a cloud is in mine, this cloud rains knives, it rains the smell of my childhood, it rains thoughts of suicide, it rains how i could make a change, at this moment i am so far from reality, i feel like this room is the only room on earth or whatever i’m on, i think everyone is outside my door reading my thoughts, how could life do this to people, i start to cry and then it stops, clogged gutters, how do i remove my leaves, i could hire someone, but they would put bitterness in my mouth, hard to swallow, mac says come back to earth, how do i explain dissociation to an innocent mind?

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