When things are bad, do you lose your words?

I feel like when I’m in the middle of an episode, I have no words. I can’t describe it because it’s all so overwhelming. I can’t explain, elaborate, or even describe the terrors.

It’s the world, it’s the people, it’s the day and the night. I can’t say. It’s everything. I can’t describe anything when I need to. I lose my words. I feel dirty and grossed out trying to communicate what I’m feeling to my partner.

It can’t make really make sense and I can’t even properly communicate.

Do you lose your words too?