M4F - Big Black Cock and Interracial Cuckolding

I don't know what it is, but lately I can't help but think about white girls switching to superior black men. I can't quite place it. Their dark skin in contrast to a white girl , the lusty looks girls give their big cocks, the fact that they are usually more dominant and stronger than me, or the way they look with a black cock stroking them. The ultimate tease is when they get a Queen of Spades tattoo to show they are BBC only. I just feel so inferior to them. When I see a hot girl on the street or at a bar, even more than wanting to fuck them myself, I want to watch them worship a bbc, while telling me how they will never fuck a white guy again. I have been very into r/blackworldorder and r/blackisbetter lately and so desperately want a woman to tease me about being black only. Tell me why I'm not good enough for you. I obviously would enjoy some raceplay. Make me feel like a pathetic white bitch who could never get girls like you.