NFather is actually getting worse with age

Being an only child to an extreme narcissist is one hell of a ride. Disregarding my shitty childhood with the man (and my mother who always takes his side no matter what because “it makes her life easier”) I’m now 30 and 9 months pregnant. Without going into too much details because this is more of a fucking rant, he takes out his frustration on me, 9 month’s pregnant hormonal mess. In short, he yells at me over asking if he wanted lunch. So of course that sets me off, which sets him off. Left me sobbing in their front yard yesterday in front of all his neighbors who were outside. (Hormones are a bitch)

Minus the fact he doesn’t care about his first and only grandchild, he says “I’m putting unnecessary stress onto him” like really now. Your wife is dealing with chemo and you are concerned about yourself. Like shit man, then he calls me back this morning asking me to take mom to/from chemo tomorrow because he has shit to do. Mind you, Christmas Eve we almost lost her, but now that she’s not actively dying, it’s no big deal anymore. Well, I can’t. Apparently being pregnant, chemo is a risk to pregnant women for a few days. But had the nerve to call me selfish because “he has work to do”. Right and not like I don’t work full time. But my husband gets off scott free (not like I’d allow my husband to be dragged into this mess) and only I get insulted and shit on.

I’m so damn frustrated. I wanted nothing to do with the man but unfortunately mom came down with cancer which makes him frustrated he can’t party and drink. She needs help and I feel like shit for it. He seriously parties and drinks at the ripe old age of 63. I want to be there for my mom but I’m limited. And after she still coddles his ass like an injured toddler, I’m fucking torn.

I hope this baby will change him, but I’m not holding my breath. Wtf I’m 30 years old. At least my in laws are more sensible.