Confused

Sorry this may be all over the place. For the past 1-2 years I have been very confused spiritually. Growing up I have really only ever been exposed to Christianity, but it hasn’t seemed like the right path for me the last couple years. I just haven’t felt connected. I’ve honestly never really felt connected to God. Many people very close to me are devout Christians and want me on that path as well so that I will go to heaven. I truly believe their intentions are in the right place but again, Christianity just hasn’t completely resonated with me in a way that I can follow it whole heartedly or feel like I’m connecting with God. I’m not sure how I feel about the Bible or the church. I want to forget about religion and just focus on my spirituality but I don’t know where to look for truth if not the Bible. Looking at other humans or research articles or books isn’t something I’ve been able to get into either because it seems as if I’m looking to other humans for truth rather than God. I know there is a God and I desperately want to connect but I don’t know where to look or what to do. I feel very lost.