Little ramble

I still can’t bring myself to do this I want to journal my life but the last time I kept a diary was eight years ago I want to write It all here coz it somewhat feels like someone is listening to me even though that’s not the reality. Currently life has been so painful, I went through the most traumatic experience of my life which I’m not ready to share yet It’s drowning me mentally and I can’t act like nothing happened Maybe that’s what causing all this stress but I don’t know how to go about it I have no one to talk to about this who will actually listen and offer help rather than just listening and moving foward coz it does not involve them For the mean time I’ll be good just keeping it All in , I mean that’s what I’ve always done I deal with my problems alone and get over them alone but this one has absolutely destroyed me