I think I might be legitimately actually about to finally kms

Sob story warning

My life is fucking shit lol

I got abandoned by my parents when I was 16 and picked up an addiction to meth which cost me my teeth. I wasn't living I was just surviving and I saw some awful shit. Like finding multiple people I knew dead from OD bad

Lost all my pet birds save for one because I was living in poverty and it got too cold

My mom eventually took me back in

Her husband is literally a convicted arsonist alcoholic who has so many duis he can't drive (imagine being such a drunk you get banned from driving)

My dad's dead

I put myself in to residential living for a year and got back in school, even made a "friend"

We got an apartment together

Lived with each for a year until he revealed himself to be a fucking psycho who stalks women and kills animals

I reported him for the escalating psycho shit

Turned it around on me. Which is crazy to me because I wasn't the only one complaining about him. I have no idea exactly what he told people but they seem apprehensive to talk to me and people I don't even know give me dirty looks (could be me just being paranoid) BTW these are outreach workers at a mental health

It's so fucking bad that even my counselor takes jabs at me in therapy and is refusing to schedule any appointments

And on top of it all I'm pretty sure my cockatiel is on her way out, she's over a decade old anyways so

I genuinely have no fucking idea what to do, I feel like relapsing hardcore and wandering off into the woods or mountains

I'm fucking losing it man

I went from having the "highest test scores ever seen in the district" when I was younger to being a burnt out pos junkie