Nothing is Going Right

I try to stay as positive as I can, I really do. I try to smile through it figuring I can manifest some good things to finally go my way, no luck so far and now I’m 40. Lmao I was just going to give an example of how my battery died in my car last night and how since I failed to secure my hood I just shattered my windshield, and now my battery’s dead again. Btw I also live in my car. I work full time again and I still can’t afford a place let alone able to catch up on my debts or even repair what I have. Sorry for the rant, I’ve always been aloof and tend to stay away from most people due to an extremely traumatic childhood so I don’t have anyone I can really talk to.