Do I still have any chance?
FA here, 21M, no friends, no experience.
I went to college last year in the hopes that it would change my life, finding friends and a potential girlfriend, I kinda did but suddenly they stopped talking to me (I am too obsessed by philosophy and people dont like that) and the girl didnt want me around anymore.
I wrote a letter to her and them she humiliated me in some audios she made (seriously thinking in hearing them on repeat just so I can feel something).
Everyone in my class hates me, they called me "chato" (either boring or annoying), I am alone and each social rejection makes me even more and more insecure, I have existential thoughts every time I talk to someone.
I plan tomorrow to make a story directed to all the people in my class that follow me apologizing and trying to clarify it, I dont know what to do anymore, they either pity me or ignore me.
I also plan to start, as an special watcher student, to be in philosophy classes in another university, so I can really find New people and talk to things I like. I am just kinda suspect It might not work, because there Will be a bunch of old people, ideologues and SJW and I hate that shit, they Will hate me because my worldview is totally different and they wouldnt stand it.
I am honestly in hopes I can find some miracle person either new from my psychology class or either one from my philosophy class which isnt obnoxious, endlessly talking about social causes. If nothing works this year, I might seriously try suicide, until them, I Will do my best to fix my situation and to avoid drowning in my depression, because no one likes a depressed person.
Posted Jan 22, 2023, 5:05 AM UTC
I can't seriously grasp why some people are like that.
I wouldn't do that, that usually ends up in more mocking, pity, or hate/disgust. Try to ignore them as best as you can.
I dont really know, I just wanna fix this, maybe they will feel sympathy and might be the first step to really change something.
I dont really know If I have something to lose, what changes If they hate me a little more?
It's really up to you if you say you've got nothing else to lose. Personally, that would worsen the situation more than it already is. I think people might also find this kind of apology or action cringe to some extent.
I'd look for each one separately and apologize individually, instead of doing it in the classroom and to everyone. It'd lower chances of mocking, I'd assume, ofc.
Good luck if you're going to do it, though.
It isnt the whole classroom, just five people in the Instagram on stories.
The message is:
For you in college, you were right in calling me "chato", I have Lost in my own world, I know that no one cares about how I think and I realized that I was being someone who only talk about what I liked, obsessed, of one single note, forcing the environment, egocentric, so I Will try to change and avoid being obnoxious and arrogant and try to have more empathy for people instead of rejecting everything in the world. I realized what I did wrong and wanna be someone better.