Seeing and listening subliminal/Binaural/Bioknesis on MTF Hormones can help me become a real girl?

Context: I'm a 17 year old lesbian trans girl (I'll be 18 in March),

I don't want to take and inject estrogen into my body, at least not before I'm 25,

I was always a boy very attracted to girls, I liked anime, e-girls, at school,

especially in physical education classes,

I got along better with girls,

With the 2020 pandemic,

schools were closed,

and since I was on the internet,

I always felt that there was something wrong with me,

At the end of 2020 I was very, via lgbtqia content,

I considered myself a normal straight cis boy but I never had comfort,

in 2022 I was pretty sure it was about my gender,

at the end of 2021 I started using female avatars in online games such as roblox, free fire, among others

My birth name is Gabriel,

but I started calling myself Bianca (because I always found my name)

I am an only child,

I live with my heterosexual parents,

almost a decade ago my father was very homophobic, he threatened to hit me just for turning my shirt, nowadays he is more open-minded, although he is still a bit backward, I'm a closed mtf trans,

I didn't come out to anyone,

I prefer to come out gradually little by little, and who know,

Am I right?