I [45F] was harassed and it turns me on…

It’s all I can think about. I had an incident that happened back in December. I was at a gala representing for my work. Networking and having a great time. Champagne was flowing and I was in my element. It took me forever to get ready. I wore a sexy little outfit. It was hugging my curves nicely. The event was a few blocks away from my hotel I was staying the night at. I preplanned a reservation because I knew I would indulge a bit with champagne. It was roughly 2 am when I decided to walk to my hotel. As I was walking in my heels a man approached me. He wasn’t homeless but he looked a bit grimy. I was initially polite. He complimented how I looked. But he kept following me. Asking me where I was going. I tried to walk faster but the heels were limiting me. I looked away from him and didn’t reply. But he was walking step by step next to me. Eventually he started to grope my backside and his hand went up my skirt. It felt like it lasted forever. A part of me thought he was crazy enough to abduct or rape me there. The crazy thing is I felt aroused during it all. Even when I was scared for my life. It was so intense and primal. Now I touch myself to that. My husband doesn’t know what happened. He wouldn’t understand that it turns me on.