Exit Affair

My SO threw the grocery at me today. I know we are here to talk about our AP... Mine just canceled for this week.

Seriously I don't think I have the mental fortitude for any of this right now. Discussing with SO is like tiny little blades cutting into me, I keep pushing pushing trying to change something that cannot change. I need to be the one breaking up.

AP and I we're love bombing each other, now im off the high to a very new low. I just needed him this week and although I respect his situation, mine being so difficult is pushing me to retreat in every corner. I can't bear one more tiny little cut, even with the promise of a high later...