Fleeing less hopeless

after 2 years of my husband being so passive and in denial about his sex addiction, I feel like we are finally making some progress. We went to church today with our daughter. We haven’t been to church in over 2 years. He always says “I feel like if we go to church more it will help me. I’ve lost my connection with god. And I know it will help.” But we never have time. Between work, a toddler, and a dog we never have time. We’ll I made time. Without him knowing I made time. I asked him if we could go to church and he was so happy and said “of course. I want to start going to church again and making this a priority every Sunday.”

And we went to church. I was so anxious and didn’t know what to expect. And surprisingly the service was geared around addiction and sex addiction. We had the most beautiful connection at church. And the pastor had other couples dealing with addiction of all types come up to the front together and he prayed for our healing and for our relationships to heal. We both couldn’t help but burst into tears.

It felt like a giant weight has been lifted off my chest. But then reality set in. That we both still have so much work to do. It’s been a month since the last time i caught my husband sexting other women. And he swears it will be the last. Mind you I’ve been hearing that line for the last 2 years. But something feels a little different. Our communication seems to be getting stronger. We’re not getting into these explosive arguments when he topic of his sex addiction is brought up. He’s hearing me and validating my emotions and feelings. I just really hope that this time is the last and he doesn’t find a way to ruin all the small progress.