No contact

We ended somewhat mutually and were trying to be friends, but arguments about our relationship kept happening so he initiated NC. All I want is him. I think about him every second of my day, I dream about him, and Im constantly kicking myself for things I could have done to have a different outcome.

He said he has initiated NC so that we both feel better, but I only feel like shit. More so than when we were still talking. I cant keep trying to convince him that we belong together. I know it’s for the best but my heart aches for him at every moment of the day. It’s hard to keep going.