I will contact her.

I will contact her…. later. The reason we broke was my fault. She still loves me and she really wants to be with me but she wants to put herself first as she’s also dealing with a lot. She gave me chances to change but I never did. Asked for one last chance and she said it wasn’t fair for her. So she left. I know it was hard for her to leave considering she spent a whole week on making a decision. We both hope we cross paths in the future so we don’t have any broken promises. I’m 12 days in NC. Obviously i’m not gonna contact her right now. I’m gonna give her the space I feel that she wants and need. I‘ve been putting a lot of effort in myself to change and working on my self esteem the last 2 weeks. I realize that I have to be the one to win her back because it’s practically my fault we ended. But for now I will keep my space until i’m ready to not be driven by emotions and will be okay with whatever outcome happens. Trust the process.