Not sure what I need to hear

The only option is suicide. But I don’t want to. I want there to be another option. But there isn’t so I’m stuck in this place of knowing I need to leave but being able to do it. But I have no money, everyone including my parents and ex are sick of me, I’m sick of me.! I made too many wrong choices. I just relive them, I can’t live in the consequences of them. I have kids and I don’t want to say good bye, but they will be better off when I’m gone, except for the trauma.