The reality of your life when you get sober

I am only 2 weeks in but all these thoughts and emotions have been hitting hard. When I was drunk and high all the time I didn't really care about much and time just went by. Today, I am realizing my life is a mess. I didn't maintain any relationships really and it is a cold reality when you realize most people have moved on or don't care anymore. It is one thing if one person thinks you are a asshole. But when majority of people do not want to talk to you or a part of your life, you might be the asshole ( me) my family and friends have their own tight knit group. I so badly wish I had my own tribe and I don't really know what I been doing this whole time except being selfish

On top, of that professionally and financially I am so behind. I have been half ass chasing a failing business for years and I don't have anything to show for. It sucks because I have been working hard my whole life but I threw it all away for drugs and alcohol.

I don't have any hobbies or skills really. I can start doing things and it's not really that crazy. But holy shit all I have been doing is working and getting hammered. I didn't travel anywhere. I didn't go camping or on adventures....

The good news is most of these problems are fixable. I don't want to waste anymore time. Thanks for reading my rant.