Mind control

For those who experienced hypnosis, programming, mind control etc. How did you work through those issues?? Every time my therapist tries to do trauma processing with me (involved hand and eye movements) more than half the time I’ll shut down and get convinced she’s trying to do something bad to me. I don’t remember what happened to me but I’m 90% sure it involved some sort of memory wiping. She knows my history and we’ve worked together for years. Does anyone else struggle with this? I really want to break down these control barriers and we can’t figure out how to do it. I have DID as well which adds to the difficulty. Any advice? I’m feeling a lot of despair towards my life lately because it feels like I’ll never work through this