recognizing one's shadow

On the subject of recognizing one's shadow,

There are qualities which I redeem to be good and that I should adopt into myself, yet on situations where those qualities are needed it always feels uncomfortable and uneasy to adopt them and it has been uneasy for a very long time trying to adopt those qualities ( due to childhood conditioning I presume ),
now would those qualities still be considered a part of the shadow, even though I consciously recognize the power of those qualities and their necessity in my life, and that I might even display them on a surface level? or are they integrated and other variables are at play here...

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