[POCD] Has anybody experienced this ?

Today, I have had intrusive thougths about children, also images of sexual acts with young girls, and they disgusted me. But I decided to masturbate (NOT TO THE THOUGHTS) to relieve anxiety. And during the "session", I had intrusive thoughts. I know thqt normally, POCD sufferers having intrusive thoughts about children while masturbation are very confused and ruminate after, but I just felt disgust from the thoughts, and I was only concentrated to the MILF actresses I watched (sorry for being explicit) Globally, this "session" proved me that my desire, sexual attraction is only towards milfs and people my age, and that I have no desire to touch or to have sex with a child. I'm just feeling guilt for testing myself all the day, and having thoughts of this nature while I masturbate. It scares me because, though these thoughts disgust me, I don't want to have them while pleasuring myself. Has anybody else experienced masturbation as a proof for not being a p ?