Ranting/venting, any advice for peace?

(24 m) I am quite the independent person when it comes to everything, I've bought all my own stuff (vehicles clothes hobbie stuff licenses etc.) I pay all of my own bills but I am struggling my car is a POS that keeps breaking and is borderline not running anymore, I don't have enough money for a down payment for a new one, it's a cruddy situation. Throughout my entire life I've seen everyone I've ever been close to been handed everything (clothes cars game consoles free places to live people have offered to buy certain persons a house for their new family.) Yet I've never been handed anything, I appreciate having to work for everything it's given me something that I wouldn't have gotten if I was handed everything but I keep hearing people say "if I could give you ____ I would you deserve it." Yet they keep handing shit to other people so I know it's a lie and BS. I'm tired of struggling with life every aspect of my life has put me through hellbut I can't and won't ask for help, I want it I want someone to give me something to help out and remove some of this stress but it's not who I am to ask for anything. I'm fucked up mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted yet I'm still kicking for everyone else cause I don't wanna hurt them.