The urge I have to destroy my body inorder to bring myself pain so that I feel something other than sadness and anger is so fuckin real, even though I know that I can't be doing that so I just keep it to things I won't feel 30 seconds later is so real.
Posted May 24, 2023, 4:08 AM UTC
I'm sending you warmth. Please do not inflict pain on yourself. You will feel other emotions aside from sadness and anger, just as you did before, yet again. You have hope and you will go on to a better life soon. The temporary pain will only bring you hopelessness: it will get you addicted to a false "dopamine" rush that forces you to hurt yourself to numb yourself of feelings. Keep having hope. Please.
So to anyone reading and about to comment on their it labeled itself as eating disorder and body image, that wasn't be but I do have body image issues ironically that's not usually an issue that bugs me all too much though