Dear Reddit community, I'm an "anti-social" teen with problems that I can't seem to get rid of, what were your depressing points in life which you had a hard time trying to understand and get over?

Why don't I fit in? Why do I look like "this" and never seem to be good enough? Why am I born with a physical problem thats stops me from doing what I loved most? Why can't people understand that I've been traumatised emotionally by an incident that has changed my personality forever?

Why can't I be part of the "norm"? Why can't I seem to motivate myself to work? Why doesn't my so called "best-friend" understand me when I most need him? Why does nobody understand?

Why should I even try? Why should I even care for the person I think about daily when I get nothing in return? Why can't I have people's recognition when I accomplish something good? Why are my faults seemingly so much more looked at by people when it happens once in-a-long-while? Why do I spend so much effort understanding other's p-o-v's when they never do the same for me?

If I can't get along with anything/anyone/myself, I fear for the worst and I can't stop thinking about the future, how would I even get past real life when it is supposedly so much more worse?

Dear Reddit, I've been stuck effectively in my house for 2 years due to an injury, apart from school related work, all this has come to a point all together where I have considered suicide as an option numerous times but I put it off because I fear letting everybody else down and hurting my family. Maybe I'm just a weakling and never strong or good enough for anything.

-I'm only 17 and I feel like the end is fast approaching for me.

TL;DR- I don't understand life - What are your worst moments in life you've had so far which you had a hard time getting through and understanding? What techniques made you get through it with ease?

Edit 1: I'm not complaining about my "problems", I just want to know everybody else's problems. The questions listed above are ones that I consider everyday almost 3 times a day. I seek inspiration, not criticisms.