I have been thinking about suicide a lot more than normal.

The last few weeks I have been thinking about suicide a lot. Making plans and what not. My problems seem insurmountable, and I just don't see myself ever having a future. Since I know you are wondering, and the only way you can help is if you know what they are...

I am a trans girl. My family resents me, my friends have left me, transition is going very poorly. I really don't want to kill myself, but I see it as an inevitability. I don't think I am going to do any serious self harm soon. 6 months ago I promised myself I would give it a year before I did anything, my life has not improved very much in 6 months. It is just getting very hard to deal with life in general when the only thought I have is "running that blade up my wrists would solve everything." Maybe I am just not strong enough to do this.

Again, I don't think self harm is imminent, but I think about it constantly and it is ruining my life. Any advice is appreciated, or shared experiences.