Problem getting Motivated/Giving a Shit...

Alright, I've been having trouble getting motivated, for 2-3 months I was trying 5000 calories a day (up from standard bulking of +/- 4000) and had zero weight gain (just pooped alot), so I eventually stopped giving a shit and dropped to <1900 cal a day, and didn't have any weight loss, until now (lost about a pound).

Anyway, just wondering wtf, and also what kinds of things you do to keep yourselves motivated (miss having a workout partner, that helped alot).