Depressed at the difficult journey ahead of me, of my own making...

Today I weighed myself and the reality finally sunk in. 105 kg. 232 lbs. I am not overweight - I am obese.

I am so upset with myself about this. Like many others, this is not the first time that I will attempt this. I successfully made it to my goal weight as recently as last year - here with a few friends. Now, I look like this. I let the wheels come off due to a variety of things (jogging injury, demands/stress at work). And I let that little voice telling me I had already messed things up snowball for the entire year - a month of no exercise and worse eating turning into 12 months of no exercise and a steady diet of junk food. I've addressed one of the major stress factors, as I will be changing jobs in late January.

I'm hoping to channel this anger into something productive. I can't continue to make excuses. If I do, I will never have this under control. For those of you who have beat the seesaw problem, what was the most important thing you learned that helped you do it?