Not fapped since March, but yesterday incident happened and need some advice... Please! :c

Hi,

So, since March I'm not fapping. That because of certain 20% cooler reasons (those who get the ref will know, if not just ignore). I just hated fapping and porn suddenly, just hated it so damn much. But with time curiousity arose and...

My problem is, I swore not to fap till end of April 2013. I've scheduled some extensive fapping over two days in May 2013, so that decision could've been influenced by hormons. I've never ever EVER broken a swore in my LIFE. Until yesterday. I'm damnly depressed now because that happened. And I don't want to have broken it, thus looking for some excuses. I think I'd be fine if a certain amount of you "gave me permission" to excuse that incident.

Just a bit related to the above paragraph: Would you allow me to go at my fullest the next weekend only? I've developed some neat fapping tools using balloons and other homestuff which I think I just could't bare to have waiting a half year hidden in my cupboard.

Thanks for reading!