Going fucking insane.

I ran into an old fuck buddy of mine today. He's the one guy who I've had things end badly with. More in terms of me feeling like I was never being respected than anything else though. But he's always had this hold over me, where every time I see him, I totally forget about what an ass he is and just need to fuck him. We were fucking around together for around 3 years or so, and I haven't seen him in about 3 years (the last time we fucked was around 5 years ago).

I'm just really aggravated that seeing him and chatting for a bit (just general catching-up conversation) has totally fucked with my head. I can't get him off my mind now and I'm crawling out of my skin, wanting to contact him and fuck the shit out of him. I know I won't. But it's really hard not to. Anyone else have that one person who you know is just so bad for you but you have this inexplicable pull towards them? How no matter what you do or how long it's been, every time you have any sort of contact with them, you go a bit mental with desire?

So fucking frustrating!!