When love goes oversea..Have you ever been in love with sombody oversea? From very far away? Did it go well?

Let's start. I'm 18 and from Germany (sorry fot my english). Last summer i met a girl due to an exchange. I wasn't part of the exchange by myself, i met her randomly because a good friend of mine was her host. They came from Michigan, US. The exchange took 3 weeks. These three weeks have been the 3 most wonderful weeks in my life. I met her first on a small party. Her host brought her. When i saw her i was like "Well, i want to know that girl more close". So it happened and we talked much that evening. We both agreed to a next meeting. The next days i didn't really realized my feelings. I wasn't in love after one meeting. We met more often. But it was randomly and not proposed. After one week i asked her out for some ice cream in the city. She agreed. We met. It was a wonderful meeting. We hang arround in the city and talked and we both were just happy with being together. [damn. fuck you tears.] We both are quite..famous in our circle of friends. Don't ask me why I am but she had pink hair that summer and everybody here in germany and the US exchange people were like "The pink haired girl is dating that german guy." It wasn't my purpose to make it look like a date i just wanted to be with her because i liked her. The point is that everybody else knew about our feelings BEFORE we did..funny eh? We spent much time together but we never talked about our feelings. We continued with being happy together and met more often. Randomly and proposed. We met like every second day and chat every single day. The days passed and in my head was that big countdown clock. On the last but two days we talked about our feelings. We both are quite shy talking about feelings so we talked via facebook. It happened during conversation. She told me i'd probably be her best friend if i were american and i said i hoped she like me more and that friendzone is not what i expected. She told me that she likes me more than a friend too and we canceled the conversation. I searched and found her the next morning in school. We went for a walk and i told her about my feelings. She wasn't dismissive but not the same girl i knew before. I was confused all day long and in the afternoon after school she messaged me via facebook that she is sorry for the stuff happened the morning and that it is okay if i hate her. i told her i don't and tried to be wise. She told me, that she is confused because of the american-german thing and that there can't be any relationship ever. That hurts man. We arranged for the "Goodbye-Party" on the next evening. She told me she only wants to meet me there as a friend and we could have as much fun as possible as long we say goodbye as friends. We met again on that party. It was in the evening and their airplane left early the next morning. I asked her for a last walk together and we walked away from the other people to talk. She was very quiet and i tried to talk to her. Then i just kissed her but she turned her head away and excused herself many times. She told me it would be better to get back to the others. I agreed. Then i tried to keep distance to her. I didn't talk to her the rest of the evening. The party went on and from time to time the people left. I stayed. She, too. We left as one of the last. The party was in a small cottage on a field in my hometown so we had to walk some minutes to the street where her host mom picked her up. We walked down to the streets with some friends and suddenly, when the streets were already in sight she took my arm and told me to stop. she told me that she wants to say goodbye to me alone. Then she hugged me. It was a long and intense hug. Then she loosed the hug and kissed me. Women are so damn complicated. We hugged again and continued walking, hand-in-hand. We arrived the streets and waited for her host mom. When she arrrived we kissed again. A last time. I told her i'd never forget her and she got in the car. We are still in contact per facebook. Chatting nearly everyday. But i keep the promise and only be the german friend. nothing more. From time to time i have these down-times. Times where i have to think of her and ..yeah, i still want to be with her. Half an year later. Damn you feelings.

Well, don't know if i feel better now but it's worth trying out. Let's see what the future brings..