Smoking again after a weed influenced panic attack, which led to crippling anxiety?

I'll start with my Tl;DR: After trying weed for the first time I suffered a major panic attack and crippling anxiety for about 3/4 of a year after that. I rely on drinking to relax from my constant train of thoughts and I'm strongly considering trying another joint, is it worth the risk? Very much appreciate any responses.

About a year ago now I tried my first joint, I was at a park near my college (A 30 minute train ride from home) on break with some friends. It was tradition for them to go and smoke a joint on their Friday afternoon. After having weed popularised by pretty much everyone around me I decided it was time for me to try it out. The dude with the gear rolled a pretty fat one, packed with weed and tobacco. It was rolled in watermelon rolling paper so it tasted fucking amazing, this led me to take several big tokes. I felt fine at first but then as I began to walk it felt like I was walking on the fucking moon, it was at this point that I realised that I was actually high and began to panic. I attempted to play my friends at table tennis after but failed miserably as I was too busy shaking. My stomach had the most peculiar feeling in it which only those who have had a panic attack can understand. I decided that I was going to try to go and walk the high off, I went back to the park and walked up and down for about an hour, during this time I was feeling some very strange effects, including the feeling of pissing, even though I wasn't, which was quite frustrating.. Anyway, fast forwarding on, after this event I found myself feeling the extreme effects of anxiety. I could not drink alcohol/smoke like before, anytime I would as soon as I took my first sip of a beer, I would begin to panic. Anywhere out of my comfort zone I would begin to panic, especially in big crowds. This crippling anxiety lasted about 3/4 of a year until I managed to get an apprenticeship/job which forced me to fight my way out of my comfort zone and deal with my issues. I am yet to have felt any anxiety issues since, but I do struggle with finding happiness. My whole social circle smokes weed every weekend, almost everyone my age does. I'm becoming very tired of drinking alcohol to become relaxed (When sober my mind tends to run unbearably fast). So I'm highly considering (pun intended) trying weed again. Although of course, I am very anxious about this causing another panic attack, thus resulting in the after effects of before.