M here. Did anyone else experience this?

So, at the end of 2020 I got very bad anorexia which almost caused me to die. I didn't go into hospital until March 2021, from where they put me into a mental hospital for therapy. After that, the eating disorder wasn't as bad anymore. I was normal weight and ate normally. Now at the start of 2023 things started to get bad mentally, but I kept a normal diet. Now, mid 2023 I can barely take the thoughts anymore. I feel so trapped. I can't escape.