After two years, I think I am finally making some progress.
I went to a birthday party with a 3 month old in close proximity for about 3 hours. I couldn’t avoid the interactions. I didn’t have a meltdown like I did at church last week.
That is all. Unless you can give me some tips to help me continue to manage my emotions.
Also, my husband and I were asked if we were trying. Smh.
Posted Jul 2, 2023, 10:32 PM UTC · edited
Ugh I totally feel this. I was at a wedding a few days ago with my partner’s friend’s two month old there the whole time and it was so freaking hard. We both were pregnant at the same time and I miscarried and I feel so bad, but seeing their baby was such a trigger for me that as soon as I got home I just wanted to sit in the shower and cry for hours
I'm so so sorry. You should be so proud of yourself. It's those unexpected comments that hurt the worst. I thought I was okay and went to a birthday party on the weekend. There was a newborn and I just couldn't look at her and spent the whole time fighting back tears. You are not alone ❤️
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I feel you, it really sucks. Went to a party yesterday and one of my husband's cousins is due any day now. She was really sweet and was concerned with my feelings after my loss a month ago. I felt emotional but didn't have a melt down. I just keep telling myself that I'm different and that's okay (I have PCOS). Im still young and have other fertility avenues to try before having a baby just isn't in the cards. A few years from now I think it'll start feeling unbearable.
So sorry you're here, I'm not sure there is a one size fits all solution to grief. The day I miscarried I let it all out, basically cried a whole day. Snapped at a coworker when I was asked "why the long face?" Then had a full meltdown when a different coworker got mad at me over an unassigned parking space. Somehow I'm starting to feel more like myself.
My first loss took me about two years and several months of sitting with a counselor to feel more like myself.