I’m just venting. Need support

I’ve met one of the most amazing woman that is everything I could of ever asked for but in the bedroom. Like if I could of listed every single perk I could of ever wanted it is her hands down.

She’s been on a medication that severely effects her libido to where it’s basically non existent. Not only the frequency is bad but there isn’t any passion when it does happen. She still is super touchy feely kissy with me but not with sex at all. She has no desire and she said so. Outside the bedroom there is so so much passion.

I have an extremely high libido to make matters worse. What kills me is She said before she started the med her libido was insanely high too and she was always wanting it. I never experienced that with her because I met her after she started it.

When she brings up the past with her previous relationships it kills me so much in so many ways because she wasn’t on the med at that point. It brings out anger frustration jealousy that others got to experience it and all I get is begging her and feeling like a child every time I get turned down. She is happy and her love language is met. I’ve tried everything at first thinking it was me. Am I attractive enough, am I ugly, is it I’m not treating her well. I’ve even asked her these questions. It’s so much emotional trauma…There was a week where she wasn’t on this med and I experienced her without it and it was like lightning between us, it was so so fucking perfect between us. It was like out of a movie….

Next week she is talking to the doctor to try and switch to an alternative medication that shouldn’t affect her libido. All I’m asking is for prayers and support because she means the world to me but I’ve came to the realization I can’t continue this relationship, love isn’t enough if this doesn’t get resolved. She said today to me that if she simply saw a sex scene on tv or saw a dick instantly she wanted sex… that fucking destroyed me and all I can think about is I wish…

Yeah there is always other fish in the sea but every partner always has flaws with them. She’s so flawless…

I want passion and drive and for her to want to rip my cloths off too…. I don’t want sad blowjobs or handjobs… or obligation sex. Fuck all that.

I’m a mess tonight. I’m praying that next week will be positive