I give up.

This is just me ranting so disregard or downvate if you would like. I'm going back to sea after only being at my limdu command for a month. I was told that the time I was waiting on my ship for my limdu orders counted as my Limdu period. I waited from February to the end of May to get off the ship and finally arrived at my limdu command at the end of May. My doctor doesn't care and I can't even get his contact info from the medical clinic. I've done every by the book when it comes to asking for help for my mental health and every step of the way something has gone wrong. No one cares about my objections and me saying I don't think I'm all the way good. I've been doing therapy and taking the medication but I haven't had time to decompress and get my mind all the way right like they told me I would when i was told I'm going limdu. even though I didn't stand duty on the ship I still came in everyday and was still doing the same things that stressed me out. My anxiety has been through the roof beacuse the constant uncertainty of orders and where I will end up. I'm just done.... I give up. My biggest mistake was re upping for orders that I lost because I asked for help. I regret everyday asking for help beacuse all it day was make everything more prominent and worse. I don't plan on doing anything stupid so don't worry. Thanks for reading my rant.