I don't really know how to handle this anymore.

Long story short, been in a LDR for the past year, fell in love hard with my bf (24) and we had a very nice connection and communication.

The last 3 months things started to change tho, he began to suffer a lot around his mental-well being, he gets stressed and exhausted really fast out of the blue, we barely speak spontaneously as we used to do, he seems to be drifting away every now and then. Now, I really love this boy, I'm willing to be patience every time he starts to get grumpy with me for little things because he jad a bad day, or be there if he needs someone to cry with but... those kind of situations make me think if they do love me back or they are just comfortable of having me around.

I'm meant to do my 2nd visit to his country during November (I'm the only one who has travel in the past) and I'm not even sure if he wants me there, and it's not a cheap trip for my country's currency, much the contrary. He had mention he is happy of getting to see me again but there is.. "something" weird, I mean, I know we are all different in expressing ourselves, but he don't really sounds or seem excited/happy when saying so, and I know it has to do with his current state, but I don't know of the trip is gonna be enjoyable for neither of us like this, maybe I'm just gonna be a burden, maybe I'm gonna feel rejected during the stay. I don't know if I should just quit the trip and let him know, because I have tried to speak about this with him but he is really blocked about talking about anything "conflict-related" right now and he gets triggered really easy.

I do really love him. But I don't know if this situation is gonna change anytime soon, and it's already a big inversion on my end, i don't like comparing money-feelings topics, but I have to in this situation. I just wish I could help him more to get better.