Feeling bad around friends

Just sucks how so much of the time I feel bad after hanging out with friends, especially my best friend. It’s not even their fault it’s me, so that’s even worse almost. I think I just get faced with the things they mention about themselves that I try so hard to protect my peace from like try not to think about or compare myself to others. Especially with like my lack of relationships/dating that they have so much experience with and even things like driving or going to school, which I don’t do bc of my anxiety. Even working, bc I can’t rn due to family care but even if I could it’s smth I’m rly anxious to have to do again. All the things that just seem to happen in their lives that I struggle with so much to change in mine. The irony is I get depressed when I go a long time not hanging with either of my friends but then I do and feel bad a lot of times anyway, lol.