Yet another year wasted on serving others...

My life is just being wasted away. I go out with people who are more concerned about how bored they are, instead of my mental well being. And just so I'm not the "bad person" I do everything I can to fit my schedule around them.

Family is also not safe. I haven't had a single day off for months because after work (and going out with needy "friends"), I have to do errands for my family, and I still can't get a single day for myself.

I really want to block everyone and disappear. But I don't have the courage in me to do so. I still can't stand up for myself and say no. I'm so exhausted yet at the same time, I can't break free.

I hope one day I will finally be able to prioritise myself, free of all the guilt tripping. I recently had a mental breakdown, and I finally said enough was enough and set boundaries. Of course, my "friends" weren't happy because they apparently need me to keep them entertained, while my family is unhappy that I can't keep being a walking doormat because God forbid I need a day or two off work.

I'm at my tipping point. I really am ready to block everyone and start life from fresh. Yet I can't muster the courage to do it...

Is anyone struggling from the same?