Is anyone here that can't forgive their parents?

Hi, basically I had a shitty, mentally, verbally and physically abusive parents. I watched them supporting my elder sister whereas I was sidelined every damn time. They won't let me do the same things my sister did in her days. They straight out said she never did all those things and I'm making it up. At certain point I stopped looking for their validation and did what I wanted and became the abomination child. They used to say it my face that I'm a failure and stuff like that. It deeply hurt me. I tried to unalive myself a few times but fell very badly into self hrmng.

Now many years later I'm married and went to another country with my husband but I was pregnant and had a lot of complications so my husband suggested we call our parents to Dubai but they said they won't come and we came to India for treatment since there was no one to take care of me there. My husband came with me to drop me off but when he was here he lost the job and couldn't go back. So we're stuck here. I ended up having a miscarriage and lot of health issues. Now we are struggling financially and I'm struggling emotionally and physically. My husband is paying for the therapy and he thinks that my depression, eating disorders and sucdal traits are because of miscarriage.

Also my sister was pregnant early this year and they went to Canada but they refused when I had asked. They still keep telling me that I caused my husband to lose the job and I'm the reason he's going through a financial crises. They keep throwing insults like I'm good for nothing, and if only I was a good human being God wouldn't be punishing me. They beat me up when they saw an old man trying to mol*st me when I was 7 years old. I still remember every detail of that day. I don't know what kind of good human being I am supposed to be.

I can't seem to forgive them at any cost. I can literally see through them. They say that it's their way of showing love. If that's the reason then why is my love so different from my sister? I don't have anything against my sister but I can't seem to forgive them.