Back injury, hair drama and the landlord illegally entering my rental.

It's been a terrible week, and I don't really have anyone irl for support. I'm currently on day 2 of my cycle so most of the things mentioned happend in hell week.

I'm feeling the lowest that I have in a while, I (33F) feel so lost now. I'm not really sure where I'm going with this post, but I feel like I need to get some of this off my chest one way or another.

On labor day weekend my partner(34 m) threw is back out. This happened one week after returning to work from a 6 week strike. I've been his "homecare nurse" since then. He can't even dress himself or go to the bathroom unassisted. Doctors have been very unhelpful with his pain and injury, totally brushing him off, just like what they do when I try to get help with PMDD.

As my partner was on strike a good portion if the summer money was already tight before his injury. My birthday is next week. I had plans and appointments to try and focus on self care during my birthday week. Most of the appointments ( including therapy) I have had to cancel. And I'm still debating whether or not to get my hair done next week, my appointment is at a hair school.

A paragraph about my hair:

I straight up feel like I have body dysporphia but for my hair. I am never happy with it, it always feels wrong when I get it done I like it for a few weeks then I start finding flaws and feeling like it's "not right". That being said my hair is also very important to me, I have always had shit skin very prone to black heads, sebaceous filliments etc. So my hair was one of the features I always felt I had going for me. My hair has started to thin over the last year and that's stressing me out too. My hair appointment is for balyage I'm hoping to get some bleach to blend my grey, and then get the blonde toned grey. I haven't had my hair professionally done since April 2022. I have given myself a trim and some demi permanent colour at home. My hair colour is between and level 4 and 5 , so dark brown not black but also darker than most brunettes I feel.

So do I spend money when money is tight to try and make myself feel better about all that hair drama that I have or not? I have no idea if getting my hair done going to make me feel better or worse.

My boss has been increasingly more withdrawn at work making me and another Co worker pick up his slack. He called a 3:45pm meeting yesterday after being awol since 11:30 am.

At the end of July we experienced leaking in our rental home. Yesterday the contacted us saying that they have been trying to contact us to make repairs. We then proceed to tell them that no they cannot come over to do work today as my partners back is out and we need more notice. I haven't had an opportunity really clean up in like two weeks. They show up at 4:15 pm illegally enter our sun room to post a notice. We'll there was an ashtray with cigarette butts in there(it was a total fucking disaster) and we are on a no smoking property. So now we could very well get evicted or not have our lease renewed when it is up at the end of April.

Now the guilt and anxiety I feel is overwhelming and I have to clean a 3 bedroom house and take care of an injured person. I feel like I want to die. I'm so tired of feeling like I've gone through the emotional and financial wringer every day of my life.

If anyone has advice, can relate to this or has an opinion on what I should do to my hair let me know. I just feel so incredibly lost.