ugly

nobody cares if you’re an ugly girl. My facial genetics are just terrible. I can’t handle the pain and misery anymore. I have no reason to wade through all the hurt of life just to survive. I can’t even expect basic human decency, that is not a privilege bestowed upon me. I give up on life. I can’t kill myself for a while but I am officially dropping out of life. I don’t want to talk to anyone and I do not want to eat or do anything. I have no life or soul anymore. I’ve already been slowly dropping out but this is it: The Point of No Return. I have been trying so hard but there is no point anymore, it will end eventually and I just choose now. Nobody cares how I feel anyways. I will do well in school so I am able to support myself. But nothing more. Nobody takes how I feel seriously even mental health professionals. I feel completely emotionless inside. I hate how my body forces out laughs and smiles and tears when I do not feel anything. I give up.