Do you know this feeling?

Do u know this feeling?

I'm in my early 30s, have experience with raves and drugs, and unfortunately also the anxiety and panic attacks that come with them. I had them many years ago often, but they haven't been chronic for a long time.

I just want to get away from the stress of work and and all problems and have fun with my friends at a festival, which we will visit soon. And these days/weeks before make me nervous.

Because I had a small panic attack in Ibiza about a year ago that lasted 2 days, I'm afraid that it will happen again this time. The problem was that although I had great stuff, I had tried something from someone else that didn't suit me at all. He gave me MDA instead of MDMA, and that triggered an instant panic attack.

Do you know this feeling, you just want to have fun, u are excited about going there again on a festival but you are afraid of the party or drug use? I just have a lot of respect for it. I'm not 20 anymore. That's my anxiety disorder that I seem to have.

I'm sure there are people who know what I mean.. That feeling isnt cool man. I will try to chill and just enjoying the time there and not focussing on the drugs.