How do you know?

Hi, I (30 cis male, bi-curious) have been having some really weird questions about myself.

I hear people all the time saying they’ve always known they were born in the wrong body. That deep down, their identity is firmly something.

But what if you only sometimes want to act like the opposite gender?

At first I thought it was just a kink: -Sometimes I’d ask my ex-girlfriend to paint my nails to feel pretty. -The one time I had sex with a guy I kept asking him to treat me and dress me as a submissive girl. -I bought a miniskirt and stockings recently because I wanted to feel pretty in them. I even posted pictures of myself in that outfit on reddit (I’ve since deleted the posts)

But I’m starting to remember other weird thoughts from when I was younger.

-As a kid I imagined these scenarios where my penis was cut off as an accident. -Sometimes I think about how different things would be if I went through high school again as a girl. How attractive would I be? Would I still keep the same friends?

I know it’s weak evidence. I tend to overthink things. I just want someone to tell me these are regular thoughts. That people who are really trans have stronger thoughts and feelings than this and that at my core, I’m still a guy.

I’m just super super tired of not knowing who I am or what I like.

Thanks for your support!