My friend drives me sexually wild

I've been wanting to have sex with one of my female friends who happens to be my bestfriend. She supports me and I do too and we just love and care for each other. However, I've been hiding this secret desire where I wish I could just fuck her. She has this babydoll like-face, tight body, short and has really beautiful skin. I've masturbated to the thought of her so much and God knows how many times I busted a nut to the wild thoughts I have planned if I ever get her to bed. For example, I'd fuck that tight ass of hers as they moan in pain and pleasure and make ungodly sexy faces. I'd also from time to time think about what colour her asshole is and how does her pussy look like. Is it trimmed, bushy or clean shaved? It's like, I love and care for her alot but I also really wanna fuck the shit out of her. I'd love to make her mine by impregnating her through her consent as she realises she'd like to go the way with me and we would just kiss each other passionately as I blow my hot, steamy load in her pussy.