Can I become a christian without anyone knowing?

The thing is I’ve been wanting to convert Christianity for a while now, but my parents are very strict and against me being a Christian (not only Christianity, this also includes any other religion except Islam). I grew up in a Muslim family, everyone around me is Muslim and also people here aren’t respectful to any other religion than theirs so I can’t let anyone know otherwise I’ll face the consequences. For the past few years, I started to question Islam and decided that it isn’t for me. After doing lots of research, I’ve decided that being a christian is the best choice and I’ll continue my life like this. But there is another problem that we absolutely don’t have any churches in where I live, so I don’t know where I can pray. I’m also not sure If I have to get baptized or not to become fully christian. Please help me with my journey, thank you. May God bless your hearts and family 🙏