I'm healed

I'm sad and happy at the same time.

I only had 1 alter. I'm 27 yo and he's been with me since i was 3. HE DID EVERYTHING FOR ME.

HE EVEN TAUGHT ME HOW TO LIVE WITHOUT HIM....EVEN THOUGH HE KNEW....HE KNEW HE WOULD DISAPPEAR....HE'S GONE...he made sure i was ready...he made sure i would be able to live and choose for myself....and then

HE WAS A GOOD FRIEND, HE WAS A SUPER HERO FOR ME,HE WAS MY INCREDIBLE HULK...always coming out to help me, to suffer for me. And now...i know what's really like to be alone for the first time in my life. Now i'm ready to accept people in my life.

i never cryed so much in my life, but i can't it's 's not what he wanted from me.

he's going away FOREVER SO THAT I CAN JUST BE HAPPY FOR BOTH.

goodbye Max. You'll be missed you crazy little monster. ;(

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that was a lot. he wrote me a goodbye message too and i'm crying like a fucking fountain here....

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i taught him how he could choose another life, how to be happy, how he didn't need to be the dark personality he was, because i was stronger now

he wrote me how to defend from people the way he did it anyway just to make sure i'll be good without him should i ever need it .

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i just want to cry....it really feels as if a brother died. He was the only alter i had

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