but are we all lost stars trying to light up the dark? bye, reddit!

You've been a space for my creative expression,

got affirmations and appreciations from random strangers,

you've been a source of entertainment and empathy, a place to connect.

also a source of thrill and fun.

and a place of heart aches and disappointments too.

oddly, a source of added trauma.

a place to confront my inner demons, my past self that still needs healing.

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I've never been so driven to chase after the life that I've been missing

until a stranger made me realize that my impulse can kill me

until this stranger proved it to me.

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I realized that i can't get healed from the same environment I got sick.

so this is how it feels, letting go.

finally closing all portals that will lead me back to relapse.

to finally choose consistent healing and growth, this time.

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To you, stranger - you let me live a lie. I somehow, understand you.

Coz that's what I do, try to see where people are coming from.

I'm sorry that this world is so cruel, that turned you into that person.

I hope you'll learn from this, and set a good example.

Less hypocrisy, more congruency.

Especially how to handle a woman's heart right.

I hope you'll find healing too.

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To the people who rooted for me - I'm sorry I had to leave.

It was nice exchanging stories with you.

Thank you for the countless cheers.

I'll continue rooting for you from afar.

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To the people who are healing - you are brave.

We'll get there soon.

May you find inspiration on the beautiful future that awaits you.

The different versions of you that you'd embrace,

You'd cry with, dance with and celebrate with.

You'll be fine. God's got you.

Eyes on the prize.

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- loststars_09