I'm afraid to make friends but I'm so lonely

for the longest time, I've had trouble making and keeping friends. I can probably count on one hand how many friends I have currently. Hardly any of them live near me and the others can never hang out.

I spend a lot of my days in bed sleeping, playing games, or scrolling reddit. it's so boring and sad and it makes me want to make new friends, but at the same time I'm so scared ill end up chasing them away somehow.

I feel like I'm in a loop of wanting to make friends and feeling like I shouldn't for the sake of not scaring other people. I feel like I'm too intense sometimes, and I've been told I have boundary problems (which I have been trying to work on). I feel lost and lonely and I feel like I have no one to talk to these days.