Am I selfish/unreasonable for not wanting to start fresh with a new therapist?

TL;DR terrible at writing. Pointless rant. Probably makes no sense.

Am I being unreasonable for not getting a new therapist? My family has been hounding me about getting back to therapy but I can't bring myself to get a new one. That I had, they were great, they made me feel valid and just treated me like a human but in a way I truly needed at the time, it wasnt soft and sugar coated they spoke in a way i could fully comprehend, i still find myself missing that connection. It was never my choice to go to therapy it was court appointed and it truly was the best thing that ever happened to me, it was like an older sibling/parent advice I lacked, they were there for me through some pretty big hills in my life(without going into to much detail my life just seems to never stop being "exciting")...From my understanding family issues came up and they had to quit due to family problems. Completely content with that, life happens I have BPD and they got me to a point I was fine with that abrupt end. After they had to quit they assigned me a new therapist, they were okay but had that professional touch that felt so unwelcoming as if they were only there for a paycheck when getting into our first couple of sessions things were awkward I tried just explaining a little of my life and they laughed, no hate towards them I tend to be comical when explaining my experiences and it just sounds so over the top how could they not laugh? But something about the laugh almost felt as if someone had just unspin my last roll of toilet paper across the room. like a dumb chicken stopped seeing any mental health professional. the one before was not like that, they made me think and realize a lot of things, one of the biggest was recognizing that everyone is only human and I was blind to that for a long time. I just can't see myself trying to restart all that hard work I put in with the first therapist. Sorry for the long (probably pointless) aimless story. But am I selfish for only wanting to continue any sessions with that particular therapist and just telling my family no? I know im unreasonable for not wanting to restart, I'm just not sure if I could mentally handle trying to explain my life without them knowing me prior to now. Absolutely sorry for the long rambling, just been itching my brain. I'm terrible with literature apologies for the stroke trying to read this.(ive been out of therapy for three years now)