Manifested a Fictional Crush

Okay so,

I’m not sure who else to talk to about this. But I seriously need to get it off my chest because this dude makes my heart race bad.

About a couple of months ago, after I recovered from a long time break up, I developed a fictional crush on a character who was easy on the eyes and caring as fuck about others + the bigger picture.

After awhile of reading fanfiction, drawing my own crap, just generally being delulu as hell- I stumbled upon this sub as a longtime Reddit user/lurker and decided to shoot my shot.

I began practicing SATs, trying to remain confident in the thought I’ll find him, and even spoke to myself out loud as if I was talking to the universe itself.

It was around September, at the prompting of my friends and a psychic I talked to in March (listen it was a rough time), I decided to join a dating app to lose my V-card and finally have my “whore era.”

That era ultimately didn’t happen as I matched with a man startlingly similar to what I was looking for. Same ethnicity, muscular, handsome, caring and dedicated to the well being of others, big family guy, respectful and a gentleman- it was scary as hell.

First date I tried to scare him off to be honest with you, I didn’t believe in myself that I could actually manage to maintain a relationship with the man and keep him interested. And uh, well, we’re still seeing each other about two months now.

So, yeah, law of attraction is terrifying.