30 [M4M] - Connecticut/USA/anywhere - lonely nonpassing crossdresser for discreet online LTR with anyone

I am a nonpassing bottom crossdresser who is in the closet and wants to remain discreet and still have a relationship. Been looking for a long time I guess thats why we are all forever alone here. Still believing theres someone out there even though it hasnt worked a million times already. Looking for patience and loyalty and someone who wont judge me and is really serious for something long term. Also looking for someone to help me feel more in touch with my feminine side. I love to chat in detail about that or just lots of chat in general. need someone who has lots of time to give me attention